Christian became very discouraged and overcome by emotion
But, my God! On the day I gave my life to Christ at Christ Coming Church. The pastor said you will hear the prayer of a sinner that turns to you in repentance.
Why all these sudden guilts and condemnations that are disturbing my mind? Could it be true that I was deceived into believing you saved me, while my prayer was actually abominable to you? Why is it that I don’t feel saved any more?
Oh God! If it is true that only a selected few will be saved from sins. Please make me one of them. I don’t want to miss heaven. SOB! SOB!
Heaven? What is so special about heaven? Is not heaven that boring place, where all you do from morning till evening is shout ‘Holy, Holy, Holy..’ as if there aren’t better things to do? Why bother trying to go there?
And what about hell? Don’t you think it might be a wonderful place with big parties? After all you’ve not being there to know what’s it really like?
Oh God! These are foolish thoughts.